The following article was originally published in the 36th-year edition of the Finnish-language journal, SPEKULA (3rd Quarter, 1999). SPEKULA is a publication of Northern Finland medical students and doctors of Oulu University OLK (OULUN LÄÄKETIETEELLINEN KILTA). It is mailed to all medical students of Finland and all Northern Finland medical doctors. Circulation 6500.
MICROCHIP IMPLANTS, MINDCONTROL AND CYBERNETICS
by Rauni-Leena Luukanen-Kilde, MD Former Chief Medical Officer of Finland
In 1948 Norbert Weiner published a book, CYBERNETICS, defined as a neurological communication and control theory already in use in small circles at that time. Yoneji Masuda, "Father of Information Society," stated his concern in 1980 that our liberty is threatened Orwellian-style by cybernetic technology totally unknown to most people. This technology links the brains of people via implanted microchips to satellites controlled by ground-based superr-computers. The first brain implants were surgically inserted in 1974 in the state of Ohio, U.S.A., and also in Stockholm, Sweden. Brain electrodes were inserted into the skulls of babies in 1946 without the knowledge of their parents. In the 50's and 60's, electrical implants were inserted into the brains of animals and humans, especially in the U.S., during research into behavior modification, and brain and body functioning. Mind control (MC) methods were used in attempts to change human behavior and attitudes. Influencing brain functions became an important goal of military and intelligence services. Thirty years ago brain implants showed up in xrays the size of one centimeter. Subsequent implants shrunk to the size of a grain of rice. They were made of silicon, later still of gallium arsenide. Today they are small enough to be inserted into the neck or back, and also intravenously in different parts of the body during surgical operations, with or without the consent of the subject. It is now almost impossible to detect or remove them. It is technically possible for every newborn to be injected with a microchip, which could then function to identify the person for the rest of his or her life. Such plans are secretly being discussed in the U.S. without any public airing of the privacy issues involved. In Sweden, Prime Minister Olof Palme gave permission in 1973 to implant prisoners, and Data Inspection's ex-Director General Jan Freese revealed that nursing-home patients were implanted in the mid- 1980's. The technology is revealed in the 1972:47 Swedish state report, STATENS OFFICIELLA UTRADNINGER (SOU). Implanted human beings can be followed anywhere. Their brain functions can then be remotely monitored by supercomputers and even altered through the changing of frequencies. Guinea-pigs in secret experiments have included prisoners, soldiers, mental patients, handicapped children, deaf and blind people, homosexuals, single women, the elderly, school children and any group of people considered "marginal" by the elite experimenters. The published experiences of prisoners in Utah State Prison, for example, are shocking to the conscience. Today's microchips operate by means of low-frequency radio waves that target them. With the help of satellites, the implanted person can be tracked anywhere on the globe. Such a technique was among a number tested in the Iraq war, according to Dr. Carl Sanders, who invented the intelligence-manned interface (IMI) biotic, which is injected into people. (Earlier during the Vietnam War, soldiers were injected with the Rambo chip, designed to increase adrenaline flow into the bloodstream.) The U.S. National Security Agency's (NSA) 20 billion bits/second supercomputers could now "see and hear" what soldiers experience in the battlefield with a remote monitoring system (RMS). When a 5-micromillimeter microchip (the diameter of a strand of hair is 50 micromillometers) is placed into optical nerve of the eye, it draws neuroimpulses from the brain that embody the experiences, smells, sights and voice of the implanted person. Once transferred and stored in a computer, these neuroimpulses can be projected back to the person’s brain via the microchip to be re-experienced. Using a RMS, a land-based computer operator can send electromagnetic messages (encoded as signals) to the nervous system, affecting the target's performance. With RMS, healthy persons can be induced to see hallucinations and to hear voices in their heads. Every thought, reaction, hearing and visual observation causes a certain neurological potential, spikes, and patterns in the brain and its electromagnetic fields, which can now be decoded into thoughts, pictures and voices. Electromagnetic stimulation can therefore change a person's brainwaves and affect muscular activity, causing painful muscular cramps experienced as torture. The NSA's electronic surveillance system can simultaneously follow and handle millions of people. Each of us has a unique bioelectrical resonance frequency in the brain, just like we have unique fingerprints. With electro-magnetic frequency (EMF) brain stimulation fully coded, pulsating electromagnetic signals can be sent to the brain, causing the desired voice and visual effects to be experienced by the target. This is a form of electronic warfare. U.S. astronauts were implanted before they were sent into space so their thoughts could be followed and all their emotions could be registered 24 hours a day. The Washington Post reported in in May 1995 that Prince William of Great Britain was implanted at the age of 12. Thus, if he were ever kidnapped, a radiowave with a specific frequency could be targeted to his microchip. The chip’s signal would be routed through a satellite to the computer screen of police headquarters, where the Prince’s movements could be followed. He could actually be located anywhere on the globe. The mass media have not reported that an implanted person's privacy vanishes for the rest of his or her life. S/he can be manipulated in many ways. Using different frequencies, the secret controller of this equipment can even change a person's emotional life. S/he can be made aggressive or lethargic. Sexuality can be artificially influenced. Thought signals and subconscious thinking can be read, dreams affected and even induced, all without the knowledge or consent of the implanted person. A perfect cyber-soldier can thus be created. This secret technology has been used by military forces in certain NATO countries since the 1980's without civilian and academic populations having heard anything about it. Thus, little information about such invasive mind-control systems is available in professional and academic journals. The NSA's Signals Intelligence can remotely monitor information from human brains by decoding the evoked potentials (3.50HZ, 5 milliwatt) emitted by the brain. Prisoner experimentees in both Gothenburg, Sweden and Vienna, Austria have been found to have [missing word] brain lesions. Diminished blood circulation and lack of oxygen in the right temporal frontal lobes result where brain implants are usually operative. A Finnish experimentee experienced brain atrophy and intermittent attacks of unconsciousness due to lack of oxygen. Mind control techniques can be used for political purposes. The goal of mind controllers today is to induce the targeted persons or groups to act against his or her own convictions and best interests. Zombified individuals can even be programmed to murder and remember nothing of their crime afterward. Alarming examples of this phenomenon can be found in the U.S. This “silent war” is being conducted against unknowing civilians and soldiers by military and intelligence agencies. Since 1980 electronic stimulation of the brain (ESB) has been secretly used to control people targeted without their knowledge or consent. All international human rights agreements forbid nonconsensual manipulation of human beings — even in prisons, not to speak of civilian populations. Under an initiative of U.S. Senator John Glenn, discussions commenced in January 1997 about the dangers of radiating civilian populations. Targeting people’s brain functions with electromagnetic fields and beams (from helicopters and airplanes, satellites, from parked white vans, neighboring houses, telephone poles, electrical appliances, mobil phones, TV, radio, etc.), is part of the radiation problem that should be addressed in democratically elected government bodies. In addition to electronic MC, chemical methods have also been developed. Mind-altering drugs and different smelling gasses affecting brain function negatively can be injected into air ducts or water pipes. Also, bacteria and viruses have been tested this way in several countries. Today's supertechnology, connecting our brain functions via microchips (or even without them, according to the latest technology) to computers via satellites in the U.S. or Israel, poses the gravest threat to humanity. The latest supercomputers are powerful enough to monitor the whole world’s population. What will happen when people are tempted by false premises to allow microchips into their bodies? One lure will be a microchip identity card. Compulsory legislation has even been secretly proposed in the U.S. to criminalize removal of an ID implant. Are we ready for the robotization of mankind and the total elimination of privacy, including freedom of thought? How many of us would want to cede our entire life, including our most secret thoughts, to Big Brother? Yet the technology exists to create a totalitarian "New World Order." Covert neurological communication systems are in place to counteract independent thinking and to control social and political activity on behalf of self-serving private and military interests. When our brain functions are already is connected to supercomputers by means of radio implants and microchips, it will be too late for protest. This threat can be defeated only by educating the public, using available literature on biotelemetry and information exchanged at international congresses. One reason this technology has remained a state secret is the widespread prestige of the psychiatric DIAGNOSTIC STATISTICAL MANUAL IV produced by the U.S. American Psychiatric Association (APA), and printed in 18 languages. Psychiatrists working for U.S. intelligence agencies no doubt participated in writing and revising this manual. This psychiatric "bible" covers up the secret development of MC technologies by labelling some of their effects as symptoms of paranoid schizophrenia. Victims of mind control experimentation are thus routinely diagnosed, knee-jerk fashion, as mentally ill by doctors who learned the DSM “symptom” list in medical school. Physicians have not been schooled that patients may be telling the truth when they report being targeted against their will or being used as guinea pigs for electronic, chemical and bacteriological forms of psychological warfare. Time is running out for changing the direction of military medicine, and ensuring the future of human freedom.
Rauni Kilde, MD December 6, 2000
i believe that i have
I was in the military and
I was in the military and while injured I had an MRI, I went to school the the person doing the MIR and was in formed that I do have an implant in my arm
I'm a mind control victim from Miami
A brief history. (my)
Truckdriver am, I normally travel to Jacksonville, FL, Thursday, Friday to Atlanta, I had a problem with a truck driver and since then by cb were all against me, shouting over the radio "out the state" (Ga) to my negative to make if the attacks were increasing, FUI CAMIONEROS Considered by many as a hero, I filmed a video in the privacy of my home with my ex-partner, he was sent to radio and began to talk about my morning show in Atlanta , Jacksonville MIAmi.Un days and then I discovered that I spied on the phone with a program called FLEXISPY (Truckers), reported the case to the FCC by e-mail, sent another e-mail to the Electronic Crimes Task Forces in Atlanta and Miami where live on my next trip to Atlanta this truckdrivers spies continued talking by phone and CB radios everything I talk on the phone, I happened to make a connection to the Internet for Secret Services of United States and apparently all that was connected my phone fell into the raid, (truckdrivers) who were not, I just heard, or hear the radio, only some of my preference. From that moment intensified attacks, I was earlier in 1370 nw 5st apt # 4. Miami, FL, 33125. Alli attacks began my neighbors, talked loudly, cars drove by the block, in other words, the entire block in this vigilance against me. They sent the video to many telephones in the city of Miami, had a gps in my car and sent me to the location of the entire city wireless I wondered why so much fame? and found that radio was involved in these activities. As I understand it was said on the radio that I was an ex-military and therefore castro communist collected signatures against me, I called on the radio Barack Obama, "NOBAMA" BMT "(I used to eat this sandwich in every kind of trip) "The guy who RONCA. While traveling home from my mom came into my house, things changed place (discreetly) and all this with the complicity of my neighbors who apparently signed against me, since the high apt (1370nw 5st apt # 8. miami, fl.33125) tortured me with a directed energy weapon. (microwave radiation) As my phone is being spied on by all my enemies the whole city WITH THIS PROGRAM flexispy "I put a message said that" had focused MONITORING OVER HOUSE OF MY MOTHER, MY HOUSE AND OVER THE RADIO STATIONS AND involving both the demand would be GIGANTESCA.Una well known radio announcer named Delilah (FM 97.3 the coast (Miami) FM 98.5 (ATL)) undertook ALL FOR AN ATTACK AGAINST MY RADIO TO MAKE AN ABSENCE IN MY RADIO TRANSMISSION FROM MY EX-HOUSE (1370NW 5ST APT 4.MIAMI, FL. 33125) DAY 09/09/2008 (burglary) with the complicity of MY NEIGHBORS (detractors, vigilant, GANGSTALKING) YO LA OI while traveling on the Florida Turnpike PASANDO THE TOLL OF THE ROAD 106 SOUTH TO 9:59:43 AM, talking about my clothes, CDs, John Ford COLEY "JESUS IS LOVE" (SHE SAID) ALSO SOME OF THE SAME FOR THE MORNING SHOWS LATINO When you return due north, SKIP THE BIRD ROAD TOLL PLAZA (Turnpike) FL TO 10:46:18 AM. delilah SAID LATE IN THE NOW YOU ALL YOUR NEIGHBORS Monitor and INVOLVES THE PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA POPULATION OF MIAMI NO DEJO pursued wherever he IBA VOY O IS THAT TRUCKERS you persecute me BUT ALSO FROM THE START YO SIGO doing my job because I fear NOT TO, OR ANYONE TO THE ONLY THING THAT YOU REALLY HAVE TO FEAR IS GOD. CAMIONEROS ARE ESPECIALLY 2 of them have gone to RADIO TO MAKE COMMENTS, I heard one of them in the I-475 TO THE HEIGHT OF MACON, GA on a Saturday, AND THE OTHER ON A SUNDAY IN MIAMI radio. LLEGO THE RADIO IN ENGLISH TO MAKE THE MONDAY MORNING IN A KIND OF NOVEL RELATABAN WHERE MY TRIP TO JACKSONVILLE / ATLANTA / MIAMI PORQUE was also reached to question the number of hours LISTEN TO THIS AS I work on a Saturday afternoon on 97.1 THE SKY (OCALA) BETWEEN 4:00 PM AND 5:00 PM SUNDAY WHEN A RETURN OF ATLANTA AT FULL election campaign, the radio stations are encouraged to pursue POPULATION (HARASSMENT ORGANIZED) AT ATLANTA IN A RADIO MORNING SHOW hear the voice of a detective calling from The radio station and said it had not found anything wrong with me, the speaker (AFROAMERICANO) said that he had paid all my NEIGHBORS FOR MONITORING AND MADE ME A ALUCION CARROS BMW OR SOMETHING THAT IS SO THIS WAS AGOSTO/29/2008 IN Q100 FM AGOSTO30/2008 LISTEN TO IN A MORNING SHOW AS A WOMAN I said that I SPENT MY MONEY ON LOTTERY, I wrote UN MENSAJE EN EL CELULAR NEGANDOLO Y LLAMARON A LA MUJER PARA QUE REBATIERA(esta fue la confirmacion de que me leen) LA MUJER SE NEGO A SEGUIR Y COLGO, LUEGO PUSIERON LO QUE PASABA EN CASA DE MI MAMA ("MAMA HOME" the used to say), MUSIC OF TOM JONES (OUT OF STOCK) "make fun of the music he hears my mom and opened the lines" the public who wanted to feel the AS NORMAL: THE DAY BEFORE ME Following the BANK TO SEE MUCH MONEY Sacaba STILL ME AND ALWAYS IN ATLANTA AND MIAMI. DIES ON THE RADIO IS FEAR TO SUIT.
IN SEPTEMBER 15/2008 HOLIDAYS AND LEAVE MORE TIME TO BE IN THE HOUSE CARCAJADAS intensify in the neighborhood (Little Havana), DEDICATED TO SEE ME SOME FILMS FROM THE TOP OF APT # 8 ME continue sending radiation, NEIGHBORHOOD GETS TO SPEAK FOR WATCHING MOVIES THAT I AM AT THAT TIME, SO I gather that are watching BY CHAMBERS, had already reached the conclusion BECAUSE THIS OLD DAYS IN ME WHEN I set up a towel and BAÑABA NEIGHBOR OF THE SENIOR APT # 7 SALIO shoot to THE HALL OF SENIOR Protests and saying "The MARI EAST ..." And other things like this, comments from a meeting at 3:00 PM WITH SOMEONE (Chivato, SOPLON, GANGSTALKING) AND NO stop talking on the phone, LO DE MARI ... IS THE VIDEO THAT traveled all over Atlanta, Miami, and send it to City phone MERCHANTABLE AFTER THE FIRST TIME I heard about him was when a TRUCKDRIVER I-75 IN THE HEIGHT de Cordel ME RADIO SAYS THAT WAS ME AND THE CIA was investigating who had a MIO VIDEO MAKING POWER IN YOUR SEX.
VOICES IN MY HEAD FEEL FOR THOSE DAYS, I think they're APTO OF THE PEOPLE'S UP NIGHT got there several people, including truck drivers PARK AVE IN THE 14 AND AFTER MIDNIGHT TO TOP OF entered the APT.
EVERY DAY IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO SLEEP IS DUE TO RADIATION AND DAY 20 SEPTEMBER FOUND TO ME THINKING read, think something INTENTIONALLY AND THE NEXT MORNING THE ERA OF THE WHOLE NEIGHBORHOOD COMMENT TO SEE ME TO DECIDE read THOUGHT kill BUT GENTLY, begins to take CHLORINE begins to vomit AND DECIDE THAT PLACE AND LEAVE FOR VOY OCKEECHOBEE RD (HWY 27) THE ROAD IN NORTH STATION AND A PLACE FOR FISHING left, begins to take ALLI CHLORINE linked to REFRESCO, SE HARE NIGHT and sleep at my MAMA AND RETURN TO THE SAME FOR ANOTHER DAY AT THE SAME PLACE HWY 27 AND AFTER VOY A MOTEL IN SOUTH BAY on September 21, RENT A ROOM TO CONTINUE WITH MY WORK OF SUICIDE ALLI, ME BATH, METO FLOW IN HAND WITH THE OBJECTIVE OF OFFSET CHIPS BUT NOTHING quit smoking and I forgot BACK TO THE FOURTH, I'm going to the folder and see a police patrol BASKET OF FRONT OF MOTEL BACK BUT HWY 27 TO SO YOU EXPECT TO DEDUCT me MATE.
THEN decided to live, change your mind, I began to report in THE INTERNET AND THE RESULTS CAN NOW. CURRENTLY HAVE ONE OR MORE TELEMETRICO IMPLANT. I have been able to report that I read on radio, TV, AND IN THE OLD AND NEW NEIGHBORHOOD THROUGH TELEMETRY. And there is a whole BONCHE IN MIAMI WITH THIS. THE ERRORS IN THIS COUNTRY are expensive, so it is not hard to imagine what will happen IF MY GOAL IN THE LAWYERS fighting.
HOW CAN NOT SEE MY STORY NI sound to the rest of these victims, AS THEY DO THE PUBLIC, SOCIAL SECURITY, # BANK ACCOUNT, IN FLEXISPY phones that I began to think about how to use that and the result is that I've become at a radio station despite MIO.
2 HAVE ONE OF MY CELL WORK AND OTHER PERSONNEL Mine (786) 991-3443 AND LISTEN TO ME LIKE ME LEEN AND ME HE IS DEDICATED TO ALL INFORMATION TRANSMITTED BY TELEPHONE AND THE CITY OF MIAMI TODAY knows many things.
For all those I had to break ADVERSITIES lived ONLY THE LEASE AND CONVENIENCE AND RETURN TO MY OLD HOME WITH MY MOTHER IN 8782SW 12 ST APT 102. MIAMI, FL, 33174. SIGO TRUCKDRIVER AS WORKING IN THE COMPANY WHERE TO WORK FOR 3 YEARS WITH GOD FOR THE 20 WILL HAVE A NEW PRESIDENT AND God willing I will give you legal tender at all these activities.
MY NAME IS ERNESTO RODRIGUEZ, LIVE IN MIAMI, everything in my life has made public and therefore "INTOCABLE SOY" BEHIND THE MEDIA HAVE ALL OF MY LIST FOR ATTACK, because they simply "I AM THE NEWS, IN THE GREAT MORALEJA this story is that "God exists" And here in the U.S. "Nobody is above the law"
I am convinced that I have
I am convinced that I have been implanted for several years now. There is something in my left wrist that feels like a computer chips. I have asked doctors several times to remove my "cyst" but everytime I ask, they simply ask me psychological questions instead of simply fulfilling my request. Several months ago, a ringing in my ears started along with a droning. At first I thought I had damaged them but it doesn't sound like normal ear damage. The sounds fluctuate . . . it literally sounds like I have a computer going across my head. Sometimes . . . I receive messages from these frequencies. Once I was walking down the street and a thought entered my brain . . . IAM=AMY. Amy is a girl I fell in love with but with whom nothing happened. After the thought occurred . . . her presence took over my body. IAM=AMY. It was as if she was inside me. It was the most beautiful feeling I ever felt . . but I don't even know if it was real. It kills me everyday to think that it wasn't. I feel like my soul is dead and has been dead ever since. What was truly disconcerting about that night was that I got to my apartment and began to weep uncontrollably. Then I randomly picked up Orwell's 1984 and read this passage: "For a moment he had had an overwhelming hallucination of her presence. She had seemed to be not merely with him but inside him. It was as though she had got into the texture of his skin. In that moment he had loved her far more than he had when they were together and free. Also he knew that somewhere or other she was still alive and needed his help." After reading the passage, I could no longer tell the difference between what was real and what was not. I thought for five months or so that she had committed suicide and that it was her ghost that had taken over my body but I recently found out that she is still alive and well and living her life without me. This caused me to write a song about it iamami www.myspace.com/melansoncarl . . . I have to get this chip out of my wrist . . . it feels like a computer chip. I've had cysts before but this one does not have the same texture as the others and it is in my arm, where the skin is far too loose to develop any kind of cyst. Cysts are usually in places where the skin can integrate itself with the actual cyst. I know this because I've had a few of them develop on my face, and they were definitely not of the same quality. I don't know how or when it was implanted, but I have to take it out. I think I might have to do it myself . . . but I don't have any anesthetics. I need help but no one will help me . . . they keep trying to get into my head instead of just taking it out . . . why can't they just take it out. If it's a cyst, then I was wrong, but they cannot presume that I am mentally ill until they take it out and see for themselves that it is what I believe it is--a chip. I don't know what to do . . . i think of committing suicide a hundred times a day . . . but I would feel so much better if it was taken out because I would be free.
Dear Carl
Dear Carl,
Yours is a message of a person in distress, deeply troubled, asking for help and the way out.
If you can, slow down your thoughts, and begin to read and study this website for your help:
www.jahtruth.net
You need to study this Book because it will explain what is happening to you -
http://thewayhomeorfacethefire.net
Kindly,
Debra
I've been reading your book,
I've been reading your book, and it is quite helpful. I'm glad to have encountered someone who understands what I'm going through and isn't dismissing me as insane. Listen to me, what I'm telling you isn't a fabrication. I really do have a computer chip in my wrist. The thing is my family knows about it . . . they knew about it even when I didn't. Proof? When I told my mother about this, without referring to the computer chip, of course, she took me to see "This is it." She was adamant about seeing it with me. During one part of the film, if you watch it in its entirety, you'll notice Michael Jackson refer to his ear and say something along the lines of: "The LUV . . . . it's hard to adapt to the LUV." He's referring to a ringing in his ears. When he did this, my mother made a sound as if to let me know that this ringing in my ears is superficial, not ear damage as I previously thought. And my father once grabbed my head, after I had suffered all these things and said: "Don't get rid of that buzzing in your ears." It sounds like a computer ging through my head, which is why he said it's hard to adapt. Michael Jackson's film is a promotional tool for the NWO, four years left!!! I'm not kidding about this!!! That's what he means by that. He is an Obama/illuminati puppet. The difference between me and him is that he agreed to be a part of the NWO's socialist agenda. I DIDN'T. People around me can hear my thoughts everywhere I go . . . crazy things have been happening to me for the past eight months or so . . . ever since this buzzing in my ears started. Some people referred me to a doctor to remove my "cyst" and told me "Don't trust Barack Obama, his middle name's Hussein!" But once I got an appointment, the doctor said he didn't recommend it in a very ominous manner--i think he may have been threatened. Other people are trying to push me into bringing about his revolution, but I DIDN'T AGREE TO THE LUV in my ears. I believe in God . . . and God wouldn't do it this way--he doesn't need technology to bring things about. Barack Obama isn't who he says he is. But it's not him that's to blame, it's the entire US government Everyone in town knows who I am somehow. I was standing in line to buy a coffee once and the woman in front of me looked at me with crooked eyes and said to the cashier: "Who's your partner in crime?" And the cashier looked at me and said: "INGSOC," referring to George Orwell's 1984. And somehow, my album OKARMA (www.myspace.com/melansoncarl) is synchronized with the WIZARD OF OZ if you listen to it and press play 3 seconds after the eidelon: "For forty years this film . . ." But I didn't do that on purpose! I don't understand what's happening to me. My mother even said to me once that OKARMA sounds like OBAMA--OBAMAOKARMA. People in town seem to be convinced that I'm Jesus or something . . . everywhere I go . . . people look at me either with hatred and resentment or unabashed awe and say "That's him!" "That's Jesus" The thing is I do have marks on my back that look like scourge marks and I don't know where they came from or how they got there and my right side looks like it was pierced but I never injured my ribs in my life. I'm not making this up and I'm trying not to draw conclusions but the patterns are there--please don't judge me, I'm not saying that I'm jesus I'm merely presenting my experiences. These things are happening to me and I don't know what to do about it because I don't want to be Jesus and I never agreed to be part of the NWO revolution, it's too much of a burden but people won't stop bothering me when I go out in public, trying to push me one way or the other, some of them make lamb noises at me, others scoff me. But they still won't take out the computer chip, because then the ringing in my ears would stop. I know it would but my mother's been making sure that this doesn't happen. She comes to the doctors with me and tries to make me look like I'm insane even though she's the one who took me to see This is it and started me on this path of self-destruction. She would rather see me instintutionalized than have them remove my "cyst," because she knows it's a computer chip. She knew about the buzzing in my ears even when I thought it was ear damage.