I was involved in charismatic, pentecostal christianity for 15 years. Filled with Spirit, bible believer, etc etc. But things just did not make sense to me.The things taught in the church by apostles and prophets, the visions and prophecies of success and prosperity and granduer just kept me and the others on a perpetual merri go round or treadmill of useless vain works.

I began to see through the religious fog. My pastor now called an apostle by many is actually a false apostle and false teacher! I was teaching and believing the same stuff too. I began to see when beginning to recognize the controlling nature I myself have. Then I saw that it is in the church I prided myself on being free. Then I could see it in our society (mass media) and in Governments dancing to the illuminati plan for a new world order. The amazing thing to me was how this false holy spirit which we all prophesy out of,or hear in our minds, is manoevring the church into this same new world oder church! And I was one of its (FALSE) prophets! My family and I have not been in a church since April 03.We are branded as heretics and decievers and deceived.We are shunned in public and preached against by the"apostle". .It is frustrating that no one in the church will listen to the conspiracy (truth) happenning in their midst. They are all waiting for some "outpouring" of divine love to change the world into a better place! They believe G.W.Bush is God's man for the hour cos the prophets have spoken it and they cant be wrong. My biggest fight is not getting too cynical and bitter.