i cant quite find the words of how i feel. most likely cause i take the whole picture  into question. if i write passionately about the controversy over marijuana, government conspiracies...does it matter? i dont know, they have tvs ALWAYS on their is always reached out and if u refuse they hit. we have to form a fist to take back something we never knew existed...i feel horrible because i can see my words, name, voice and sight fade away not one day but each day that is how i feel.  Relenquishment; I recently had the pleasure of personally addressing one of the UN's head of securety, who was a very nice woman, i asked questions of what their doing to help africans and so on, she showed slides she looked emotionally distraught, we all felt sad 4 Africa. But after the class i asked for a moment f her time, we had coffee, i asked her questions about y not use marijuana to help Africa shit do it in secret, don't let NA know just fucking help them! Then with a serious look in her eyes she told me something that left me feeling frozen,'I'm surprised you have the courage to be so bold with these 'accusations',( i said what about this 'vchip' is that a lie! what about)"your smart, do you think were helping the people in Africa? she got up to leave.. do you think were helping you?...by looking at the coffee in my hand as she walked away with an Aquafina bottle none the less believe it or not im pissed off everyday, i smoke 4 i dont go crazy

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